Christine Hamm

A dark memoir of an addict who was addicted to everything - especially if it meant it was going to kill her in the end. Booze, weed, cocaine and every party drug you can imagine were her daily go-to's but then she found the true love of her life and her ultimate demise, Crystal Meth. Meth was the dirtiest drug she had ever taken both inside and out. It's a low grade drug also known as poor man's cocaine that ravaged her mind, body and soul like nothing else ever could. She could feel herself changing - morphing into something ugly. The goodness of her heart and the compassion of her soul began to melt away like skin off the bone. After four years on the drug and at 29 years of age she felt like a senior citizen. Her bones ached from disintegration, her organs were going into failure and she had been given four years to live. She couldn't smile anymore, hadn't smiled in months and was horrified by her reflection. It was like looking into the face of an emaciated demon who's only desire was to kill and be killed.The story plunges deep into the rabbit hole of violence, unsavoury characters she meets along the way and ultimately becomes the monster she swore she would never become. As a child she had a long list of thing she would never do - when her addiction got through with her there was almost nothing left on that list. Her goal was to be free and happy; instead she got locked into a cage of internal prison grappled and maimed by the mangy claws of addiction and its cunning, baffling and powerful ways. As a manipulative, lying junkie, who was living with an abusive meth supplier, Christine never thought she'd get out alive - at least that's what she was hoping for but then the day of redemption came. A true fork in the road. Was she going to kill the man who had lost her snake Bella, the one pure and good thing she had left in her life and happily go to jail knowing that justice had been served or was she going to go to detox where a bed and a new life was waiting for her? She had the most important decision of her life in front of her - life or death? Death was easy, after all, she had been choosing death, drugs and dying for over 15 years, but life? What would that look like? Who would she be on the other side of that decision? Did she want to live or even have anything to live for?Special features of this book: A detailed account of what meth is, what's in it, how Christine did it and the long term damage How abuse and the sexual assault changed her A chapter specifically for parents who have a child lost in addiction. How to cope, what to do and reassurance that its not your fault How faith in a Higher Power, meetings, a sponsor and the 12 Steps changed her life Exclusive to this book, a never seen before look into the mind, voice and ravaging nature of her addiction Christine has many gifts and rewards in her life today but would it surprise you to know that after 10 years of clean time her life can be almost as challenging as when she was in active addiction? She is now faced with the raw, real nature of life on life's terms with nothing to hide behind anymore. Will she make it another day or is there a chance she could go back to her old ways to numb the pain?

How Freedom from Crystal Meth Let Me Out of My Cage and Allowed Me to Soar!

Flying Free

Poetry. Women's Studies. Winner of the 2019 Tenth Gate Prize. This surreal series of prose poems, harmonic and jarring, pops the reader into a world where the animal is a danger-suit we might all don, or is a force of chaos that breaks families, or America's unconscious hatred of women. Perhaps it is our world, perhaps more real than surreal. One of the most unusual investigations of gender and family, this collection disorders and disturbs, knowing that upending the status quo makes the best manners of all. "Christine Hamm's GORILLA is a potent and wholly original collection that traces --with the indelible strokes of dream logic --the contours of domestic dramas and estranging losses, along with the menaces of masculinity. In these charged pages, we encounter animals in states of power and peril --including eponymous GORILLA, whose actions corrode and haunt, throughout the book --along with flying babies and oddball creatures, all set arrestingly in absurdist tableaus. The emotional complexity limned by Hamm is something to marvel at. These distilled poems are strange and dark enclosures that have 'a mind of [their] own,' inviting us to be captive to their collective spell and astounding power." --Jenny Xie

Gorilla

The second edition, mass-market paperback, of Like a Fat Gold Watch: Meditations on Sylvia Plath and Living. This is a literary anthology of fiction, poetry, art and essays inspired by Sylvia Plath's work and life, not her death. Edited by Christine Hamm, and including work by Angela Simione, J. Hope Stein, Ann Bogle and many more.

2nd Edition, Like a Fat Gold Watch: Meditations on Sylvia Plath and Living

Christina Tree

Katherine Imbrie

The most comprehensive guide to the Granite State. From summit to sea, this guide provides trusted travel advice for every taste, interest, and budget.

Explorer's Guide New Hampshire (Seventh Edition)

Frau Hamms Hirn läuft auf Hochtouren, und zwar ständig. Dass dabei nicht immer hohe Literatur herauskommen kann, ist klar. Aber jetzt stellt sie ganz neue MaÃstäbe auf mit ihrem Wörterbuch, welches mit über 1.000 Stichworten zum Schmunzeln aber auch zum Nachdenken anregen soll. SchlieÃlich halten Fremdsprachen (insbesondere Anglizismen) immer stärker Einzug in unseren täglichen Sprachgebrauch. Warum also sollte man sich nicht auf unsere deutsche Sprache besinnen und auch mal einzelne Worte hinterfragen? Um die Spielerei abzurunden, hat Frau Hamm noch Musik, Bücher und Filme/Serien/Shows aufs Korn genommen und sprachlich "gepimpt". Viel Vergnügen!

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