Elliot Page

“Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back. 

With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare. 

As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do, until enough was enough. Full of behind the scenes details and intimate interrogations on sex, love, trauma, and Hollywood, Pageboy is the story of a life pushed to the brink. But at its core, this beautifully written, winding journey of what it means to untangle ourselves from the expectations of others is an ode to stepping into who we truly are with defiance, strength, and joy. 

A Memoir

Pageboy

Meine Geschichte

#1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER SUNDAY TIMES BESTSELLER 'The emergence of our true selves is all of our life's work. Pageboy helps chart the course.' Jamie Lee Curtis 'Searing, deeply moving, and incredibly poignant... This isn't simply a book on what it means to be trans, it's about what it means to be human.' Alok Vaid-Menon Full of intimate stories, from chasing down secret love affairs to battling body image and struggling with familial strife, Pageboy is a love letter to the power of being seen. With this evocative and lyrical debut, Elliot Page captures the universal human experience of searching for ourselves and our place in this complicated world. 'Can I kiss you?' It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. The unthinkable. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he'd carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back. With Juno's massive success, Elliot became one of the world's most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare. As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do. Until enough was enough. The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his story in a groundbreaking and inspiring memoir about love, family, fame - and stepping into who we truly are with strength, joy and connection.

La estrella de cine nominada a los Óscar que cautivó al mundo con Juno comparte al fin su verdad. «¿Puedo besarte?». Faltaban dos meses para el estreno mundial de Juno y Elliot Page estaba en su primer bar queer. El calor del verano pesaba a su alrededor mientras miraba a la chica. Y entonces ocurrió. Delante de todo el mundo. Una experiencia incomprensible. Allí estaba él, a punto de descubrirse como una persona queer, como una persona trans. Se aproximaba cada vez más a sus deseos, a sus sueños, a sí mismo, sin la represión con la que había cargado durante tanto tiempo. Pero, para Elliot, dar dos pasos adelante siempre implicaba retroceder otro más. Con el gran éxito de Juno, Elliot se convirtió en uno de los actores más queridos en todo el mundo. Sus sueños se hacían realidad, pero la presión de actuar lo asfixiaba. Se vio obligado a interpretar el papel de joven y brillante estrella, algo que le ponía la piel de gallina, dentro y fuera del plató. La carrera que lo había ayudado a escapar de su realidad a un mundo imaginario se tornó de repente en una pesadilla. Mientras sorteaba las críticas y los maltratos de algunas de las personas más poderosas en Hollywood, un pasado que le pisaba los talones y una sociedad decidida a meterlo en lo binario, Elliot a menudo guardaba silencio, sin saber qué hacer, hasta que ya tuvo suficiente. Repleta de detalles entre bambalinas y cuestiones íntimas sobre el sexo, el amor, el trauma y Hollywood, Pageboy es la historia de una vida llevaba al límite. Pero, en el fondo, este viaje sinuoso y escrito con una gran belleza, habla sobre lo que significa desenredarnos de las expectativas de los demás. Es una oda sobre aceptar quiénes somos con rebeldía, fuerza y júbilo.

#1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER A New York Times "100 Notable Books of 2023" A TIME Magazine "100 Must-Read Books of 2023" A Washington Post "50 Notable Works of Nonfiction" An Autostraddle "Best Queer Books of 2023" “Vivid...Moving...Juicy” – NPR "Eloquent and enthralling..." —Washington Post "Searing, deeply moving, and incredibly poignant... This isn’t simply a book on what it means to be trans, it’s about what it means to be human." —Alok Vaid-Menon Full of intimate stories, from chasing down secret love affairs to battling body image and struggling with familial strife, Pageboy is a love letter to the power of being seen. With this evocative and lyrical debut, Oscar-nominated star Elliot Page captures the universal human experience of searching for ourselves and our place in this complicated world. “Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back. With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare. As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do. Until enough was enough. The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his story in a groundbreaking and inspiring memoir about love, family, fame — and stepping into who we truly are with strength, joy and connection.

Korean edition of [Pageboy: A Memoir] by Elliot Page. #1 New York Times bestseller. Full of intimate stories, from chasing down secret love affairs to battling body image and struggling with familial strife, [Pageboy] is a love letter to the power of being seen. With this evocative and lyrical debut, Oscar-nominated star Elliot Page captures the universal human experience of searching for ourselves and our place in this complicated world. Korean edition translated by Song Seom Byeol.

Pageboy: A Memoir

"Can I kiss you?" It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he'd carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back. With Juno's massive success, Elliot became one of the world's most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare.

Autobiographie de l'acteur trans Elliot Page, connu auparavant sous le nom d'Ellen Page. Il raconte son parcours, son coming-out, sa transition, ses amours, sa sexualité et les coulisses d'Hollywood. Il fait également part des réflexions qu'il a eues dans son enfance sur le sujet ainsi que le cheminement qui l'a mené à prendre sa décision.

autoportrait d'un artiste

O astro do cinema, indicado ao Oscar por sua atuação em Juno, finalmente conta a própria história. Elliot Page cresceu sob os holofotes. Seu talento e seu carisma sempre chamaram atenção, mas não apenas isso: sua vida pessoal também era muito comentada na imprensa e nos sites de fofoca. Com o enorme sucesso de Juno, em 2007, Elliot tornou-se um dos atores mais amados do mundo. À medida que seus anseios profissionais se tornavam realidade, porém, a pressão para atender as expectativas da indústria o consumia. Enquanto ainda vivia um turbilhão de sentimentos e tentava compreender a si mesmo, viu-se forçado a interpretar um papel de jovem estrela glamorosa na própria vida, algo que o assombrava para além dos sets. A carreira — que até então tinha sido uma válvula de escape, transportando-o da infância complicada para um mundo imaginário — de repente se transformou num pesadelo. Em meio às críticas recebidas e aos abusos praticados por algumas das pessoas mais poderosas da indústria do cinema, ao passado que o perseguia e a uma sociedade determinada a enquadrá-lo na binariedade, Elliot calava-se, sem saber o que fazer. Até que se cansou. E, aos poucos, começou a se aproximar de seus desejos, de seus sonhos e de si mesmo, sem a repressão que o sufocou por tanto tempo. Repleto de detalhes de bastidores do cinema e de questionamentos íntimos sobre sexo, amor, traumas e Hollywood, Pageboy é a história de uma vida que chegou ao limite. Em essência, uma narrativa emocionante sobre a trajetória sinuosa de uma pessoa queer e trans que lutou para se desvencilhar das expectativas dos outros. Contada de forma visceral, em que o leitor quase ouve a voz de Elliot, é uma celebração ao ato de assumir quem realmente somos com rebeldia, força e alegria.

min historie

Ergreifend und ungeschönt erzählt Elliot Page in seinem Memoir von seinem langen Weg zu sich selbst. Elliot Page wurde mit Hauptrollen in »Juno« oder »Inception« weltberühmt. Mit 33, im Dezember 2020, outete er sich über Instagram als trans. In seinem ersten Buch erzählt Elliot Page die Geschichte seines einzigartigen Lebens, das ihm seine Transition gerettet hat. Vom Aufwachsen in der kanadischen Hafenstadt Halifax, vom Erwachsenwerden im von traditionellen Geschlechterrollen besessenen Hollywood. Vom Entdecken der eigenen, tabuisierten Sexualität und der tiefgreifenden Scham vor dem eigenen Körper. Von traumatischen Hassverbrechen, von fantastisch anmutenden Erfolgen. Vom Finden der eigenen Identität und der andauernden Reise zu sich selbst. Ein Buch von aufwühlender Schönheit und politischer Schlagkraft. »Dies ist die Geschichte von jemandem, der sich selbst findet – inmitten von Hindernissen, Scham, Hoffnungslosigkeit und Schmerz. Der daraus auftaucht und auf eine Weise erblüht, die er nie für möglich gehalten hätte.« Elliot Page

een memoir

Grazie al successo del film Juno, Elliot Page ha ottenuto un'enorme popolarità in tutto il mondo e persino un'ambitissima candidatura agli Oscar. Tutto sembrava perfetto. O forse no. Perché mentre i suoi sogni professionali diventavano realtà, la pressione per soddisfare le aspettative di Hollywood si rivelava sempre più soffocante. E l'Olimpo si è improvvisamente trasformato in un incubo. Sotto i riflettori non c'erano soltanto il suo talento e il suo carisma, ma anche la sua vita privata. Elliot si è trovato ben presto a interpretare il ruolo più difficile di tutti, dentro e fuori dal set. Un ruolo che lo ha costretto a fingere di essere la persona che tanti volevano che fosse. Ha indossato vestitini e make-up, posato per servizi fotografici, nascosto la relazione con la sua ragazza di allora e se stesso dietro una maschera. Una recita snervante, e a volte il senso di vergogna, la depressione, gli attacchi di panico e la solitudine diventavano insostenibili. Fino a quando, in un'afosa sera d'estate, ha trovato finalmente la forza di dare voce ai propri desideri, rimasti troppo a lungo soffocati. Con una voce autentica e coinvolgente, Elliot condivide in queste pagine la sua storia. La storia di una vita spinta sull'orlo dell'abisso - e di un viaggio tortuoso alla ricerca di se stesso come queer e come trans. Un percorso fatto di curve e di svolte, due passi avanti e uno indietro. Pageboy è un intenso e sincero racconto che parla di genere, amore e relazioni, traumi e successo. Ma soprattutto è il racconto di cosa significhi liberarsi dalle aspettative degli altri e un invito a fare altrettanto, indipendentemente da chi sei e da quale sia il tuo viaggio.. Un libro di inquietante bellezza in cui riconoscersi.

De Nederlandse vertaling van het langverwachte verhaal van de filmster die de wereld veroverde met zijn rol in Juno ‘Mag ik je zoenen?’, vroeg ze. Het was twee maanden voor de wereldpremière van Juno en Elliot Page was voor het eerst in een queer bar. Daar, op een zwoele zomeravond begon het: de ontdekking van zichzelf als queer persoon, als trans persoon. Met het enorme succes van Juno werd Elliot een wereldberoemde actrice – want zo zag de wereld hem toen nog. Maar de droom die – inclusief Oscarnominatie – uitkwam, bleek ook een verstikkende druk met zich mee te brengen. Hij moest de rol spelen van de veelbelovende, vrouwelijke filmster, een rol waarvan zijn nekharen overeind gingen staan, zowel op de set als erbuiten. Pageboy is een onthullend kijkje achter de schermen van Hollywood, vol intieme reflecties op seks, liefde en trauma. Bovenal is het een prachtig geschreven zoektocht naar wat het betekent om je los te maken van de verwachtingen van anderen en een ode aan staan voor wie je echt bent. Elliot Page (1987) is een Canadees acteur, producer en regisseur die in 2008 genomineerd werd voor onder meer een Oscar, een Golden Globe en twee BAFTA Awards voor de hoofdrol in de tragikomedie Juno. Meer dan dertig andere filmprijzen werden Page daadwerkelijk toegekend. Anno 2023 speelt hij in de Netflix-serie The Umbrella Academy.

Mijn verhaal

Um livro de memórias disruptivo do conceituado ator Elliot Page. «Posso beijar-te?» Faltavam dois meses para a estreia mundial do filme Juno, e Elliot Page estava num bar gay pela primeira vez. Sentia o peso do ar quente de verão sobre si enquanto olhava para ela. E então aconteceu. À frente de todos. Ali estava ele, prestes a descobrir-se como uma pessoa trans. A ir ao encontro dos seus desejos, dos seus sonhos, de si mesmo, sem a repressão que carregou por tanto tempo. Com o enorme sucesso de Juno, Elliot tornou-se um dos atores mais acarinhados do mundo. Os seus sonhos estavam por fim a realizar-se, mas a pressão para representar sufocava-o, e a carreira que tinha sido uma fuga da realidade para um mundo imaginário de repente transformou-se num pesadelo. Ao lidar com as críticas e os abusos de algumas das pessoas mais poderosas de Hollywood, Elliot mantinha-se frequentemente em silêncio, sem saber o que fazer, até atingir o seu limite. Pageboy é uma ode à coragem de nos libertarmos das expectativas dos outros e assumirmos quem realmente somos.

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