J. P. Barnaby

A Survivor Story I can't describe what it's like to want to scream every minute of every day. Two years after a terrifying night of pain destroyed his normal teenage existence, Aaron Downing still clings to the hope that one day, he will be a fully functional human being. But his life remains a constant string of nightmares, flashbacks, and fear. When, in his very first semester of college, he's assigned Spencer Thomas as a partner for his programming project, Aaron decides that maybe "normal" is overrated. If he could just learn to control his fear, that could be enough for him to find his footing again. With his parents' talk of institutionalizing him--of sacrificing him for the sake of his brothers' stability--Aaron becomes desperate to find a way to cope with his psychological damage or even fake normalcy. Can his new shrink control his own demons long enough to treat Aaron, or will he only deepen the damage? Desperate to understand his attraction for Spencer, Aaron holds on to his sanity with both hands as it threatens to spin out of control.

Aaron

Abandoned

"Little Boy Lost, Book Four" Little Boy Lost is the story of Jamie Mayfield, a golden-haired fallen angel. Dumped into a gay rehab center and shunned by his parents, the once-adored son of small-minded, small town people has had to find his own way in life. Jamie is astonished and dismayed when Brian McAllister, the boy he knows is the other half of his soul, explodes back into his precarious life. In the nearly two years they've been apart, not a day has gone by that Jamie hasn't thought of Brian, no matter how hard surviving has been. How can Jamie protect Brian from the pain and brutalization in his life when he can't even protect himself? Brian and Jamie will put every bit of themselves into saving each other, but Steven O'Dell isn't the only obstacle keeping the boys apart. Jamie's own self-hatred may prove to be their undoing.

Discovered

Little Boy Lost

With the strength of Brian and his friends to protect him, Jamie hides and finds the one person he is truly afraid of--himself. The long, lonely hours in the place Leo found for them to stay leave Jamie with nothing to do but think. He thinks about Brian, about the direction their lives should take. He thinks about his parents, about the industry he left behind. Mostly, though, he thinks about drugs. Jamie wants to feel good again, forget about his self-hatred, and stop the gnawing cravings that prey upon his mind and body even as he tries to start a new life with Brian.

Escaped

"2nd Edition" "Little Boy Lost: Book Six" Reunited with his father but missing the one man he loves more than any other, Jamie Mayfield attempts to put his life back together amid rehab, seizures, and the gutting loneliness of Brian's rejection. As he tries to cope, Jamie finds that relying on his friends isn't nearly as difficult as he'd imagined, and soon he can once again stand on his own two feet. While recovering from his addiction, Jamie starts a new phase of his life at college, working to become the man Brian needs him to be. Only one question remains: Can Jamie earn Brian's forgiveness and win back his trust, or will their love be sacrificed at the altar of Jamie's demons? Brian and Jamie's epic journey comes to a close in this thrilling conclusion to the "Little Boy Lost" series. "First Edition published by Dreamspinner Press, June 2012"

Sacrificed

Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door. Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret. He is in love with his best friend. In Crayford, Alabama being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin. In this first book, Enlightened, Brian and Jamie discover just how deep their emotional bond runs, and at what cost. From fumbling through their first sexual experiences to shrouding every aspect of their relationship from everyone in their lives, Brian and Jamie battle for the one thing that is truly theirs - love.What will they do if their secret is discovered?Praise for J. P. Barnaby's Little Boy Lost "Little Boy Lost: Enlightened by J.P. Barnaby is a truly enjoyable read that provides a subtle and graceful insight into the adolescent gay consciousness of Brian McAllister. Set in a staunchly anti-homosexual religious community in Alabama, this story of sexual awakening centers on two friends since boyhood, Brian McAllister and Jamie Mayfield, and details their struggle as they gain a heightened awareness of their emerging sexuality. Little Boy Lost: Enlightened beautifully blends together the classic coming of age story with the problems facing gay youth, while also evoking memories and emotions of first love. No matter what your sexual orientation, you will be drawn in by these genuine and relatable characters." The Writer's Coffee Shophttp://www.thewriterscoffeeshop.comThis book contains adult content and themes, parental discretion is advised.

Little Boy Lost Novel Series

Enlightened

Simon lives so deep in the closet he might never find his way out. He dreams of what Julian has. After a night together, a new fight begins.

A Heart for Robbie

"A Survivor Story" "From her perch on a shelf above my bed, the doll accuses me with lifeless eyes of failing Juliette in the most heinous way imaginable, forcing me to crave the bite of his whip and the steel in his voice to drown out the ache in my chest. " For his entire life, Benjamin Martin s parents drilled into his head that he must watch out for his little sister, but one horrific night, he failed. Now, the bite of a whip, cuffs digging into his wrists, his arms and legs stretched beyond endurance, these things give him what he needs to forget his sister s violent death, at least for a while. When Ben s latest Dom casts him aside like a broken toy, he manipulates his best friend, Jude Archer, into picking up the pieces. Jude has been in love with Ben for years, but his fantasies about his friend never included whipping him. He doesn't understand why Ben needs BDSM and he worries about Ben s addiction. Most of all, he fears losing his humanity because he s already lost himself in Ben. When he s forced to trade the marks upon his soul for the pain that ravages Ben, Jude learns the real definition of submission.

Painting Fire on the Air

When Jayden Carter applied to be Ethan Bryant's roommate, he never expected his whole life to change. Drawn into a world he knows nothing about, Jayden joins the beautiful and mysterious Lexi as Ethan's submissive. He then begins a journey of self-discovery that teaches him more than merely BDSM. "This story is so raw and realistic, you feel as if you are a voyeur watching this relationship unfold from the walls of the room. At first, Ethan seems cold and unfeeling, but the author slowly unveils the man beneath the facade, showing you the tortured soul that lives underneath. The slow build of intrigue and intricate plot twists leave you wanting more. The sex is smoking hot, but the story has such a beautiful quality and cadence, it keeps you coming back for more." - The Fictionators http://www.fictionators.com This book contains adult content and themes, parental discretion is advised.

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