Nicola Haken

When Theodore Davenport decides to switch his mundane job for a career, he walks into Holden House Publishing with enthusiasm and determination to succeed. As he settles into his new role, makes new friends, and dreams of making it to the top, everything is going to plan. Until he meets James Holden, CEO of Holden House. James Holden hasn't been able to stop thinking about his encounter with the timid man he met in a club bathroom last week, and when he discovers the one haunting his dreams is an employee, he can't seem to stop himself from pursuing him. Just a little fun - that's what James tells himself. He can't afford to care for someone who can never reciprocate, not once they find out who he really is. James believes nobody deserves the burden of being attached to him. He's a complicated man. Damaged. Difficult. Demanding. Broken. Is Theodore strong enough to confront James' demons? More importantly, is James? (M/M romance. Not suitable for readers under 18 years of age due to language and sexual content. ***Please note*** This book contains scenes of self harm, mental illness and suicidal ideation which may be uncomfortable for some readers.)

Broken

Saving Amy

Dylan Roberts and Cameron O'Neil were good kids. Growing up together, they shared everything. By the age of fourteen they were more than best friends - they were in love. They dreamt of their future, of success, marriage...happiness. They were going to grow old by each other's side. But... "Kids are stupid." When tragic circumstances forced them apart, Dylan discovered that life wasn't the fairytale he dreamed of; it was dark, difficult, saturated with pain and shame. Life wasn't meant to be enjoyed, merely survived, but even that became a challenge. Damaged, worthless, and disgusting, he saw no point to his pitiful existence... Until he came face to face with the boy he used to love. Successful, honourable, and happy, Cameron had achieved the future they planned. He was good, positive, popular...everything Dylan would never be. What would happen if Dylan let him back into his world? Would he destroy Cameron too? Would his poison push him away like everyone else? "Everybody leaves." "They leave or they die." But what if...what if Cameron didn't? (MM Romance, recommended for over 18's due to language, sexual content, and scenes of IV drug use.)

Counting Daisies

Matt Carter, self-proclaimed sex-god and drummer for world renowned Souls of the Knight, didn’t have the time or inclination for planning his future, preferring to fill his days with music, women and alcohol. He didn’t want or need anything else in his life. Until the band parted ways and he found himself no longer living the dream. Bored and lonely, with too much time and money on his hands, Matt turns to his best friend, Alex Clark, to help devise a new direction to take his life in. Together, they embrace their newfound venture, as owner and manager of one of L.A.’s hottest gay clubs – Kaleidoscope. For the first time, Matt has a plan. He knows where life is heading. Until a devastating phone call turns his whole world upside down, sending him straight into the comforting arms of his best friend and leading him to doubt everything he’s ever known or believed about himself. Alex had always been content with his unrequited feelings for his rockstar friend, but as Matt starts to question if he might actually feel the same, he runs as fast as his feet will allow. Has Matt gone too far? Has his reputation as an irresponsible womanizer who refuses to take life seriously, finally managed to push his best friend away for good? Or is Alex hiding secrets of his own? (M/M romance. Not suitable for under 18’s due to language and sexual content.)

The Making of Matt

As lead singer and guitarist of the internationally renowned Souls of the Knight, Sawyer Knight is living a life most men can only dream of. He’s surrounded by music, fame, wealth, women throwing themselves at his feet. He has everything… Yet he has nothing. Life as one of the world’s most sought after rock stars is tiring, oppressive and lonely. He spends every day being who the world wants him to be, who his manager tells him to be, who his mother expects him to be… all the while fighting against who he really is. Truth is, he’s used to it. He’s actually gotten pretty good at pretending… at living the lie. Until Jake Reed, his ex-best friend and the only person who’s ever made him ‘feel’, waltzes back into his life as the band’s new head of security. Jake wants Sawyer – always has, always will. Now, he just needs to get Sawyer to admit that he feels the same… “You will be mine, Sawyer Knight. The faster you try to run the quicker you’ll fall to your knees. Then, Sawyer… then you’ll be too weak to resist.” (M/M romance. Not recommended for under 18's due to language and sexual content.)

Being Sawyer Knight

Bring Me Home

Love is simple. People are not.
 
Despite growing up without it, William Walker knows all about love. He loves his wife. He loves his children. He loves the cat. He has the perfect family, and all he had to do to get it was push aside one pesky little feeling.
 
Unfortunately, love doesn't pay the bills.
 
Following redundancy, an opportunity thrusts the amiable electrician into a world he's only seen on the big screen, a world he's now a part of creating. As a spark on a movie set, William is enthralled by the challenge. The freedom. The possibilities. And, in particular, by one very charismatic actor...
 
Laurence Cole.
 
The trouble with Laurence is that he makes that pesky feeling resurface. Worse, the longer he sticks around, the stronger it grows, the more it changes. Into what, William doesn't know. It's not love. William Walker knows all about love.
 
Unless...
 
It's a different kind of love.


Different Kind Of Love

*Please note this is an updated version of a story previously published under the title 'Inevitable'* Seventeen-year-old Maddie Davis has spent her whole life on the move. With an unstable mother who has a knack for making bad decisions, she's never stayed in one place long enough to remember its postcode. But this time is different... This time, she has been dragged half way across the world. Arriving in California and being forced to go back to school feels like stepping back in time. She wants to go home... Until she meets Blaine Elwood - the stepson of an old family friend. Blaine appears to have it all. To the outside world, quarterback Blaine is rich, confident and has the 'arrogant bad boy' image down to a tee. But nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors. Nobody ever can. He has vowed never to let anyone get too close - let anyone discover how weak he is. So when new girl Maddie starts tugging at strings he didn't know existed in his heart, his only option is to push her away... Until he realizes how much he needs her. Together, after being forced into adulthood from an early age, they begin to learn what it feels like to be young - to smile, to laugh... to love. So when shattered secrets and splintered lies start unraveling around them, will the trust they've worked so hard to build be irreparably destroyed? Or will they realize they are two pieces of the same broken puzzle? (Not suitable for under 18's due to scenes of abuse, sexual content and adult language)

Missing Pieces

Since putting his life on hold ten years ago, Oliver Clayton doesn't know who he is anymore. To his clients at the hair salon, he's the sassy and confident stylist. To the crowds who come to watch his drag act at the club, he's the fierce and fabulous Miss Tique. He's popular. Talented. Out, proud, and self-assured. He's also a good actor. Sebastian Day is content with life's easy, if not a little monotonous, routine. After several failed relationships, he likes the simplicity of being alone in his truck at his job as a heavy goods driver, spending the weekends with his teenage son, and putting the world to rights with his cat, Marv. He's not lonely. He isn't hiding. At least...he doesn't think he is until he meets the mesmerising stranger with the red hair and purple lips. Can Oliver and Sebastian help each other embrace who they are? Or will a cruel twist of fate end their journey before it's even begun? (M/M Romance. Not recommended for readers under 18 years of age due to language and sexual content.)

Who We Are

You met Ryder Richardson in Being Sawyer Knight. Now, this is his story. I’ve done it. I’ve stuck a whopping two fingers up at my parents, I’ve made a name for myself as one of the world’s biggest adult entertainment stars and I’ve finally found a family I belong in. Life is amazing. I get paid to do all my favourite things. And then he comes along. Mason George – Back Door Studio’s newest exclusive model and the guy who has the potential to either mess it all up, or take me on the best ride of my life. ~ Ryder I’m desperate. I’ve got nothing and nobody left. Entering the daunting world of adult entertainment is less of a dream and more of a necessity. Signing as Back Door Studio’s latest model has the ability to either ruin or make me, but I made a vow at my first audition never to let myself regret it. I continue to question myself each day, but no amount of whats, whys or what ifs will change where I am or where I’m heading. Am I strong enough to do this? To embrace it? To enjoy it? I have no idea. The only thing I’m certain of, is that if anyone can teach me who I’m supposed to be, it’s Ryder Richardson. ~ Mason (M/M romance. Not recommended for under 18's due to language and sexual content. Please note, this book contains scenes of self harm which may be uncomfortable for people experiencing similar issues.)

Taming Ryder

Inevitable is a raw, emotional tale of love, hope and finding the courage to let someone in…Thanks to her mother's unstable moods and knack for making bad decisions, seventeen year old Maddie Davis has never lived in one place long enough to remember its postcode. A life spent running and caring for her wayward mother has turned British-born Maddie into the strong, outspoken and independent girl she is today – if not a little lonely. This time, running away is a whole new ballgame. For the first time her mum is not just dragging her to a different town – but a whole new country. It is only when they arrive in sunny California to be near Trudy - an old friend of her mum's - Maddie starts to hope they've reached their final destination. For the first time she dreams of a future. She makes friends, commits to an education and meets a boy who has the potential to steal her heart… and break it even faster.Trudy's stepson Blaine Elwood appears to have it all. To the outside world quarterback Blaine is rich, confident and has the 'arrogant bad boy' image down to a tee. But nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors. Nobody ever can. He has vowed never to let anyone get too close – let anyone discover how weak he is. So when new girl Maddie starts tugging at strings he didn't know existed in his heart, his only option is to push her away – until he realises how much he needs her. Maddie and Blaine are heading for a future neither of them dreamed of – a happy one. But then, not only are Blaine's issues at home intensifying, he discovers a shocking secret that could either send Maddie back running and force her out of his life forever, or pull them closer than they've ever been before. Will their shattered secrets leave too many broken shards to piece back together, or was their love inevitable from the start?

Inevitable

Twenty-four year old Dexter Michaels has arrived in the UK for a fresh start - leaving everything and everyone he knows behind in the states. Determined to put right some of the wrongs he'll never be able to forgive himself for making and make his Aunt Sarah – the only person left who still believes in him - proud, he lands in London with the intention of working hard, getting his degree and keeping himself to himself. He can't destroy anybody else that way…His heart and his body have other ideas however when he finds himself sitting next to nineteen year old Emily Barton in his Psychology class. Moving down south to find her own New Life, Emily is shy, smart and beautiful – everything Dexter knows he should stay away from… everything he knows would be too easy for him to break.But she makes him feel things he'd forgotten even existed. She makes him laugh, smile, care… forget. Without her trying, and without him realizing, Emily has wound her way into the one place he swore to keep locked away forever – his heart. But can she stay there when she discovers the dark past he's so determined to keep hidden from her? Or will he destroy her too, just like he always expected?(Not recommended for younger readers due to language, drug/alcohol abuse and sexual content)

Take My Hand

Seventeen-year-old Maddie Davis has spent her whole life on the move. With an unstable mother who has a knack for making bad decisions, she’s never stayed in one place long enough to remember its postcode. But this time is different. This time, she has been dragged half way across the world. Arriving in California and being forced to go back to school feels like stepping back in time. She wants to go home… Until she meets Blaine Elwood – the stepson of an old family friend. Blaine appears to have it all. To the outside world, quarterback Blaine is rich, confident, and rocks the ‘arrogant bad boy’ image down to a tee. But nobody knows the demons that lurk beneath the façade. Nobody ever can. He has vowed never to let anyone get too close, let anyone discover how weak he really is. So when new girl Maddie starts tugging at strings he didn’t know existed in his heart, his only option is to push her away… Until he realises how much he needs her. When shattered secrets and splintered lies start unravelling around them, will the trust they’ve worked so hard to build be irreparably destroyed? Or will they realise they are two pieces of the same broken puzzle? *Missing Pieces is a revised version of a story previously published under the title Inevitable. Contains some strong language and sexual references. Also, please note the foreword regarding a subject which some readers may find uncomfortable, if certain reads can prove difficult for you.*

Quand Theodore Davenport entreprend d’échanger son boulot sans intérêt pour une véritable carrière, il franchit les portes de Holden House Publishing avec enthousiasme et détermination, bien décidé à réussir. Il prend ses aises dans son nouveau job, se fait de nouveaux amis, et rêve d’atteindre les sommets de la hiérarchie. Son plan suit son cours, jusqu’au jour où il rencontre James Holden, P.-D.G. de Holden House. James Holden n’arrive pas à oublier sa rencontre avec l’homme timide qu’il a croisé dans les toilettes d’une boîte de nuit la semaine précédente, et quand il découvre que celui qui hante ses rêves n’est autre que l’un de ses employés, il ne peut s’empêcher de lui courir après. Juste pour s’amuser... c’est ce que James se dit. Il ne peut se permettre de développer des sentiments pour quelqu’un qui ne les lui rendrait jamais, en tout cas pas une fois qu’il apprendrait qui il est réellement. James croit que personne ne mérite le fardeau d’être attaché à lui. C’est un homme compliqué. Blessé. Difficile. Exigeant. Brisé. Theodore est-il suffisamment fort pour affronter les démons de James ? Plus important encore : James l’est-il ?

Brisé

Crime families and mob wars only exist in the movies. Betrayal. Violence. Murder. They don’t happen to ordinary people. Right? Wrong. For Lincoln Hollis, this is his world, and there isn’t a clapperboard in sight. A trained killer and advocate of justice, he’s been sent to unravel the neat little bow tied around Kate Fletcher’s perfect life, exposing her to the brutal truths she’s been so meticulously shielded from, before delivering the ultimate punishment for her family’s sins. There’s just one problem. They’re his family’s sins, too, and he must make a choice. Who will he say goodbye to first? Goodbye, Kate is a stand-alone romantic suspense novel for readers over the age of 18

Goodbye Kate

In qualità di cantante e chitarrista della famosa band internazionale Souls of the Knight, Sawyer Knight sta vivendo una vita che la maggior parte delle persone può solamente sognare. È circondato da musica, fama, benessere e donne che gli si gettano ai piedi. Ha tutto… Tuttavia, non ha nulla. Essere una delle più ricercate rock star del mondo è sfiancante, opprimente e solitario. Sawyer trascorre ogni singolo giorno cercando di essere come vogliono gli altri, come il suo manager gli dice di essere, come sua madre si aspetta che sia… il tutto mentre lotta contro chi è davvero. La verità è che ci è abituato; ormai è diventato piuttosto bravo a mentire… a vivere una bugia. Fino a quando Jake Reed, il suo ex migliore amico, nonché l’unica persona che gli abbia mai fatto provare qualcosa, torna nella sua vita come nuovo capo della security della band. Jake vuole Sawyer, l’ha sempre desiderato e sarà così per sempre. Adesso deve soltanto far ammettere a Sawyer che anche lui prova le stesse cose. «Sarai mio, Sawyer Knight. Più cercherai di correre veloce, più in fretta cadrai in ginocchio. A quel punto, Sawyer… a quel punto sarai troppo debole per resistere.»

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