Name: Even When I'm Gone
ISBN: 9781695914407

Nicole Fiorina

Oliver Masters

The second book in a heart-consuming series. Ollie.Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame.Mia.Seven months ago, Ollie surrendered to the darkness, abandoning me in the process. He stripped me of my walls only to leave me defenseless. Now he's back, along with fresh new faces and obstacles standing in our way. He says trust no one. Not even him. How am I supposed to be strong for us both when I'm losing my grip?"Just stay with me, Mia.""Even when you're gone?""Especially when I'm gone."

Even When I'm Gone

Hana 

Stephanie 

I’m not so sure what’s more terrifying, the violent storm inside my head or the silence.

The two slowest deaths are absence and time.

Kinda funny that most people who tell you this have a happy family and a bunch of friends. 

“The number of people who love you doesn’t determine your worth. Remember that.“

The worst part of caring too much, of feeling too much, of having too much to give, was that eventually you drain from being too much for too long.

raia – inactive

“I’ll stay away from him, but I’ll never stop loving him.”

“Because love is constant. When you love someone, you can be angry with them, you can hate them, you can be upset or disappointed in them, but you never stop loving them because love endures all other emotions.”

“Yeah? And where did you learn this from?”

A warm hand landed over my shoulder, and Zeke shook me. Glancing up, I met eyes with him as he signed, 'You’re Mia and Ollie. Never broken, only bent.'

A year ago, I never cared where I ended up, whether it be jail or six feet under. I called that progress.

“And Oliver?” Looking back up, she leaned over and grabbed my gaze. “If you don’t walk out of here with Mia, know there are other fish in the sea.”

In an instant, my smile faded. “You don’t get it. Mia is the sea.”

“Fall apart so we can fall in place, together,” I reassured him.

“Mia, and Ollie, forever,” Zeke finally whispers with a hoarse throat. His eyes blinked closed as blood soaked through his shirt.

“The only way to cheat death is by creating a love that will last forever,” Ollie whispered.

🧸

dnf 22%.

bruh this series depressed the hell out of me I was stressed the entire time idk how ppl enjoy these types of books. it really doesn't make any sense both mcs are dumb, if they went to therapy they'd have been sm better and happier now but they chose to be horny instead.
I might pick it up again just to know what will happen but I'm not sure so

Amelia 

No one talk to me 🥺 I will now be recovering ❤️‍🩹

•Ethan pensé que me iba a caer bien pero estuve todo el tiempo esperando que haga algo para justificar mís dudas Y PASARON 

•Jake, el único que me cae medianamente bien del grupito de amiguis que tenían

un poquito de la historia de Jake: fue a parar a dolor porque es gay y los padres creyentes, estaban seguros que un tiempo en encerrado lo iba a volver heterosexual ¿? 

•isaac abuso de bria en el primer libro gracias a Oscar (hermano de Ollie) y fueron ambos a caer presos, no volvieron en el segundo libro

•bria me cae mal, intento abusar de ollie

•tyler, nueva incorporación a dolor de hizo amiga de las dos de arriba, también, me cae mal 

•liam, estuvo una vez con mia en el primer libro y ahí se dio cuenta de que es bisexual 

╰Jake está enamorado de él, en el segundo libro 

•Jude, nuevo personaje, también me cae mal ahre

una cagada el final del libro, para empezar teníamos a Ollie en el final del libro anterior volviendo a ingerir los medicamentos que le daban en dolor que lo dormían por completo y transformaban a Ollie en otra persona, mala, y que ignoraba a mia por completo, ahora en el final de este libro no solo tenemos a Zeke siendo asesinado delante de mia y Ollie sino que también cuando por fin son liberados de Dolor, Ethan secuestra a Mia

*tengo muchas frases para subir pero las voy a agregar más adelante

shar

mataron a Zeke estoy HARTA
•Ethan pensé que me iba a caer bien pero estuve todo el tiempo esperando que haga algo para justificar mís dudas Y PASARON 
•Jake, el único que me cae medianamente bien del grupito de amiguis que tenían
un poquito de la historia de Jake: fue a parar a dolor porque es gay y los padres creyentes, estaban seguros que un tiempo en encerrado lo iba a volver heterosexual ¿? 
•isaac abuso de bria en el primer libro gracias a Oscar (hermano de Ollie) y fueron ambos a caer presos, no volvieron en el segundo libro
•maddie- me cae mal
•bria me cae mal, intento abusar de ollie
•tyler, nueva incorporación a dolor de hizo amiga de las dos de arriba, también, me cae mal 
•liam, estuvo una vez con mia en el primer libro y ahí se dio cuenta de que es bisexual 
╰Jake está enamorado de él, en el segundo libro 
•Jude, nuevo personaje, también me cae mal ahre
•ollie mí angelito 
•mia mí chiquita
•zeke mí hijo 

una cagada el final del libro, para empezar teníamos a Ollie en el final del libro anterior volviendo a ingerir los medicamentos que le daban en dolor que lo dormían por completo y transformaban a Ollie en otra persona, mala, y que ignoraba a mia por completo, ahora en el final de este libro no solo tenemos a Zeke siendo asesinado delante de mia y Ollie sino que también cuando por fin son liberados de Dolor, Ethan secuestra a Mia

*tengo muchas frases para subir pero las voy a agregar más adelante

soph

** spoiler alert **
           toda la mitad del libro llorando por ollie y extrañandolo para después cuando ya vuelve TODO SE VA A LA MIERDA, I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY

btw ethan i fcking hate you, entiendo lo que haces y si fuera otro libro sería top pero GO AWAY PLS

NICOLE FIORINA YOU WILL BE PAYING FOR MY FUCKING THERAPY BILLS YOU FUCKING WILL BECOUSE I'M FUCKING BROKEN AFTER WHAT YOU DID WITH THIS BOOK

Emilie Adele Rognmo

holy fucking shit. this book gave me all the emotions, i cried hard, laughed even harder, and was at the edge of my seat the whole fucking time. amazing, just amazing.

Liked the poetry, didn’t like the plot. 

God I was SO BORED reading this book. After nothing of relevance happened, I started skimming at 50 %. Coming across the same soppy love confessions simply annoyed me. I still don’t care about anyone. The badass FMC got through an implausible character development (sorry but I’m not a believer of “love will save us all and cure every trauma in an instant”), the spice was .. okay and even though the plot twists were pretty good in theory, they didn’t surprise me. 

Disclaimer, I‘m a little grinch when it comes to love stories, so it might not be the books fault but mine for picking it up 🌝

Liked the poetry, didn’t like the plot. 

God I was SO BORED reading this book. After nothing of relevance happened, I started skimming at 50 %. Coming across the same soppy love confessions simply annoyed me. I still don’t care about anyone. The badass FMC got through an implausible character development (sorry but I’m not a believer of “love will save us all and cure every trauma in an instant”), the spice was .. okay and even though the plot twists were pretty good in theory, they didn’t surprise me. 

Disclaimer, I‘m a little grinch when it comes to love stories, so it might not be the books fault but mine for picking it up 🌝

I loved it. Towards the end it had good plot twists. 

Elizabeth 

Tanya 

** spoiler alert **
           My face is still stained in tears as I write this review. Book 2 REALLY took me through the motions. There was so many different things happening in this book. At the beginning I was secretly wish Mia would choose Ethan but in the end I finally fell in love with what Ollie & her had and I just wanted the ultimate happy ending. The love between them was a bit cringey at times but that may be because I’m not an over emotional person or someone who has experienced that type of love. With everything coming to the tipping point and finding out who the prankster was yeah I can say I definitely did not see that one coming AT ALL. Nearing the end I was thinking what could possibly be in book 3 life on the outside? Would Jake get his own book? Ethan? Although I’m reeling with that cliffhanger I need a few days to let the emotions pass that I endured with this book.

Aundreya Rich

" Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it. Poetic." 

With the ending of Stay with Me stripping me, I was soooo afraid to start Even When I'm Gone.

But Nicole managed to take my mangled body and glue each piece back together like a shredded paper.

Ollie and Mia are the kind of love we read about when we were falling in love with romance reading Nicholas Sparks.
The are endless... pure and all consuming.
With a whole lot of chaos and madness.


Ollie has lost himself to the medication that numbs him and takes away all those feelings that he feels "too deeply".

Mia will fight for their love. Ollie once made her break down her walls and feel... now its her turn. Even it take a year. Even if she watches him cave into himself. She will stay.

Even when I'm gone isn't just a love story. With a bit of mystery and drama this is a well rounded book from start to finish.

When you fall in love and can't move on... don't say I didn't warn you.


What I loved:
❤️the love that envelopes and steals every ounce of your being
🔥the boy with the tattoos, big heart, roaming hands, and poetic words
💔 trauma that felt understood and brought awareness
🧐who dun it... and no I never guess correctly
🤕healing... raw and emotional

TW: medicated, suicide, rape, abusive situations, child abuse, mental health, sexual situations, death

Rating:
story-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫/5
characters-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5
genre- dark romance
steam- Nicole knows how to write the perfect lover 


song: Fine Line by Harry Styles

Maxine Reads

Holy…

So this book is actually a 4,5/5. It was still soooo good. I love Mia and Ollie so much. They are so important for me right now. I would do anything for them to be happy, I swear. 

I didn’t like Ethan from the beginning, I know he’s a good man. But I don’t like him. I know the ending showed another version of him. I still don't like him.

Brianna and Maddie.. Just... Mindfck? Yeah. That's right. 

I hope you read this trilogy because it amazing 😭😭 this deserves more attention

Alexandra Andreea

This author is gonna give me a heart attack with the amount of plotwists in her books. This is literally one of my favourite trilogies of the year. Check tw before reading tho!!

Tess

“If reality becomes unbearable, close your eyes. We were made with an imagination.” 🌹 

This book completely blindsided me! The plot twists I absolutely did not see coming! 😱 It is such a great sequel to the first and I can’t wait to see what happens in the third book! Mia & Ollie ♥️

Read this if you like ⤵️

🌹 Lovers To Strangers To Lovers
🌹 Forced Proximity 
🌹 Chilling Mystery 🥶
🌹 Shocking Plot Twists
🌹 Spicy Scenes 🥵 
🌹 Series

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫/5
Even When I’m Gone by Nicole Fiorina

Kaele Perkins 

** spoiler alert **
           WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK JUST HAPPENED?!?

This characters have been through the ringer. Like there is always something in the way. It’s frustrating. Also what is happening at this school? Like I said about the first book, putting mentally unstable people together at one school was going to end horribly. And now pranks are being pulled that are definitely not harmless and people are dying left and right and we’re trying to figure out whose doing this and just make it through the semester. The ending!!! That’s not what I thought would happen at all. I don’t even know what book three could be about??

Aubrey Erskine

If Stay With Me was a beautiful story of two broken people falling in love, then Even When I’m Gone was the reminder that they both still have very real mental health issues. 

The setting of Dolor felt sinister in this book. It is a mental health facility at the end of the day and the people surrounding Ollie and Mia do have their own demons. Ollie himself still has to fight to control his emotions, feeling everything and feeding off of the emotions of those around him. So not only do you have the typical high school/college level drama happening, it’s happening with people who actually have mental disorders. It was kind of a rude awakening after the haven book one created. 

Ollie and Mia face a lot this book. So many outside forces trying to steal their happiness and the safe haven they’ve created for themselves. There are still so many heart touching moments though and love shared between the two of them. It was definitely hard to read at times though. 

I felt like the system was letting Ollie down and I wish maybe we could have focused on their individual therapy sessions so see just how each was overcoming their struggles. I worried about them being codependent but damn everyone in this book had so many issues I couldn’t blame them for finding something in each other and clinging to it.

My one complaint about this book was Ethan. It finally clicked for me why he was there at the end of the book, but like how hard is it to run a background check and find competent guards?! These people are mentally freaking ill and being locked up for some serious help and here Ethan is in Mia’s room every night. Also what about consent? Like yes Mia was throwing around some mixed signals but you shouldn’t touch someone without asking even if you think they’ll say yes. It happens and then it’s never discussed. If I were Mia I’d feel so violated. 

The love triangle was not my favorite and I could’ve lived without it. I cannot live without more Ollie and Mia though, especially with they life they’ve dreamed of being so close. I want happily ever after for them. I also really want a Poetic sweatshirt.