Kacen Callender

"A Stonewall Honor Book From Stonewall and Lambda Award-winning author Kacen Callender comes a revelatory YA novel about a transgender teen grappling with identity and self-discovery while falling in love for the first time. Felix Love has never been in love--and, yes, he's painfully aware of the irony. He desperately wants to know what it's like and why it seems so easy for everyone but him to find someone. What's worse is that, even though he is proud of his identity, Felix also secretly fears that he's one marginalization too many--Black, queer, and transgender--to ever get his own happily-ever-after. When an anonymous student begins sending him transphobic messages--after publicly posting Felix's deadname alongside images of him before he transitioned--Felix comes up with a plan for revenge. What he didn't count on: his catfish scenario landing him in a quasi-love triangle.... But as he navigates his complicated feelings, Felix begins a journey of questioning and self-discovery that helps redefine his most important relationship: how he feels about himself. Felix Ever After is an honest and layered story about identity, falling in love, and recognizing the love you deserve. "Felix is attending an ultracompetitive arts summer program to have a better shot at a full scholarship to Brown when someone posts Felix's dead name beside photos of him, pre-transition, in the school's lobby. Felix's plot to get revenge throws him onto the path of love and self-discovery." (Publishers Weekly, "An Anti-Racist Children's and YA Reading List")"--

Felix Ever After

Alexa B. 

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Two gay guys cuddling in the heart of Brooklyn shouldn't feel this revolutionary, but suddenly, it does. 

I feel like I've been physically attacked. Like someone took control of who I am. Took that contror away tro me.

‘Listen’, he says, 'it isn't easy to just suddenly switch my idea of who you are in my head. For twelve years, you were my baby g-‘ 

I cut him off before he can say it. ‘That's never who lI was. That's who you assumed I was.'

Maybe this is fucked-up, I don't know. . . but somehow, it's his approval Ineed most, even more than anyone else's. I need his validation. His understanding, not just acceptance, that he has a son.

'Morality, at its essence, defines what is human, I say. Keeping questions of morality out of art suggests keeping humanity out of art itself.

I cannot being to explain how many times I’ve wanted to say this

‘I think it's really brave of you,’ Leah says.

‘I mean, I guess? I'm just being myself. There's nothing brave about that.'

Once I start screaming, I can't stop. I scream so hard my throat feels raw and my heart pounds. I'm screaming with joy. I'm screaming with pain. I'm screaming with the awe that I'm here, that we're all here, and that welre here because of the people before us, the people who couldnt be here, ang I'm screaming for myself, too. Screaming and cheering and a little bit of crying.

Jana

Aber statt Begeisterung erfasst mich bei dem Gedanken daran, dass ich alles tun könnte, was ich will, plötzlich Nervosität. Es sind einfach zu viele Möglichkeiten, zu viele Entscheidungen.

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