Kate McLaughlin

Pieces of Me

"If you get overwhelmed or need to leave, let me know immediately," he tells me in a low voice.

"Just take the love. Whether you realise it or not, you need it."

He kept me here. I stayed in control, and it makes me want to cry.

It's like having a safe but not the combination. Everything in it is yours, but you can't get to it.

Suicide is something we definitely need to vote on, okay?

"We just finished a perfectly cleansing sob."

"Don't you disrespect your sister like that," Mom whispers. "Dont you talk about women like that. I don't care how angry you are, you do 

Tell me your main research came from DissociaDID without telling me your main research came from DissociaDID

As the body slowly begins to drift into sleep, I feel the pull of the inner world tugging at me. I need to stay up front a little while longer so I can make sure everything's going to be okay.

I've always thought of it as the panel from Inside Out rather than a car...

"Someone else is in the driver's seat. All you have to do is survive the ride."

Anyone who's heard to DID in this generation knows of them.

I've missed them. They've been inactive for so long it's starting to get scary.

A lot of videos come up. I click the first one that catches my eye— a British girl with brightly coured hair. 

"Tell your brother to make himself pretty for me."

Absolutely no one is surprised when it's revealed who the trauma is all from.

But who doesn't feel hopeless sometimes? Who doesn't have anxiety or trohble sleeping in our current social and political climate? What young person doesn't feel like their body is being controlled by other forces at times?

"Mom," I croak through the tears. "What's wrong with me?"

"I don't know, sweetheart." she tells me, rubbing my back. She sounds tired. So tired. "But I promise we'll find out."

She's already missed out on too many opportunities because of me and my broken brain. I can't handle any more guilt. J feel like I'm ready to explode and I already take meds for this shit.

I know how much badness there is in the world— what girl doesn't? We're told about it and all the things we're supposed to do to avoid it from before puberty.

It reads easily but isn't an easy read. I got triggered a couple of times myself. Things happened a bit too fast, it would have been wonderful to have it 500 words longer if it were by a different author. But I love Connor.

Pieces of Me

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