Laura Nowlin

An intensely emotional and gripping companion novel to Laura Nowlin's USA Today and New York Times Bestselling novel If He Had Been With Me about the love that both breaks and heals us. Perfect for fans of Colleen Hoover and Jenny Han. If only I'd told her that I loved her years ago, then I wouldn't be here now. Finn has always loved Autumn. She's not just the girl next door or his mother's best friend's daughter, she is his everything. But she's not his girlfriend. That's Sylvie, and Finn would never hurt her, so there's no way Autumn could know how he truly feels. Jack, Finn's best friend, isn't so sure. He's seen Finn and Autumn together. How could she not know? And how is he supposed to support and protect Finn when heartache seems inevitable? Autumn surrounds herself with books and wants to write her own destiny--but one doesn't always get a new chapter and fate can be cruel to those in love. Told through three different perspectives, If Only I Had Told Her is a love story brimming with truth, tragedy, and the unexpected bonds that heal us.

If Only I Had Told Her

lily

They’re also the only things you'll be able to control. The world’s gonna fuck with your kid no matter what. All you can do is teach 'em to brush their teeth and love themselves."

I still can't believe that this is how humans get made, how every human was made. I always imagined that it would feel more magical. If this experience were a novel I was writing, it would be more sci-fi than fantasy or romance.

"Everyone always says they're fine. Everyone can't be fine all the time. We all just pretend it's true."

Sylvie pauses and then says carefully "There’s always things that we could have done differently. What matters is what we do now?"

Or I could find a way of thinking about Finn that doesn't hurt.

I don't know how to do that. Everything about Finn being gone is so wrong

"It basically is. Maybe you are the two stupidest people on earth who somehow don't realize you're in love with each other,

Paulina 

“Autumn sits on a stool next to his coffin, resting her cheek on its lid like it’s his shoulder” 

Finny taught me to love now and never to wait the love that Finny had is a love that is so surreal and beautiful, “But for today” is I graced in my head bc we have today and we need to live by that TODAY 🥲 bc if we wait to long to start living and loving we rob ourselves of so much love and so much future 

Luz Geronimo

I know that there will be davs when it feels like there won't be a future. But for today, I can feel how Finny is still with me

Rayanne mitchell

But it's done. Finn, my friend, is in a hole in the earth. For the rest of my life, no matter how long I live, I will always know exactly where he is, because he's never going to move again.

taci

I liked this one better than the first. It would have been interesting to read Sylvie’s pov as well 

drewbee🐝🍯✨

Meh. Only cared about Finn and Jack’s POV. Autumn’s felt bleh. Would’ve loved a Sylvia POV too

Lizeth Esmeralda

This book was honestly just beautiful yet sad to read.  Made me sad to see their grieving process and how they eventually come to acceptance with their loss. 

I really enjoyed reading Finn’s perspective even tho it seemed very repetitive all of his POV. I honestly wished we would’ve seen a bit more of his perspective in the main book, nonetheless glad the author decided to make another for us to see his side. 

This book was honestly just beautiful yet sad to read.  Made me sad to see their grieving process and how they eventually come to acceptance with their loss. 

I really enjoyed reading Finn’s perspective even tho it seemed very repetitive all of his POV. I honestly wished we would’ve seen a bit more of his perspective in the main book, nonetheless glad the author decided to make another for us to see his side. 



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Honestly I expected a lot more. I feel like this was such a great opportunity to write a devastatingly sad book but was unfortunately missed. After reading the first book I really felt like the second one was completely unnecessary. It felt very forced to me. I expected to read about Autumn's grieving and dealing with life after Finny. I fell in love with Finny in the first book and wanted to get my heart broken in this second one. Unfortunately I i didn't even cry. Also, when it comes to Jack, I just couldn't bring myself to care about him. At all. He seemed so shallow and devoid of a personality. Also he just randomly popped here and there in the story without contributing to it at all. Overall, it's not the worst but definitely not the best book either. Stop at the first book, this one won't give you anything the first one didn't. On the contrary, it will only disappoint you.

This book & the first one have been the only two books to make me cry. I love the storytelling. 

Edna Aviles

ehhhh. it was a cute idea but definitely underwhelming 

Kassidy May Gaudet

emily

I loved seeing how everyone was able to move on from Finny but at the same time still keeping him in their hearts.

Maui S.

I’m in awe of a love that was discovered so late 

“My love for her is the closest thing I have to religion” - Finny. I cannot express how much this book has changed my perspective about not only love but seizing the moment. A love like Finny and Autumn is the kind of love where their souls were made for each other. Just like Finny said, their souls are one and the same. Reading in Finny’s perspective was so eye opening to his adoration for Autumn. He always thought of her that way, he never stopped loving her when they were kids. I was never ready to let go of Finny & still not. It genuinely feels like I too am grieving with these characters. Jack’s POV broke my heart, losing a best friend & his college experience changing so rapidly. I could never handle what these characters are going through. Moral of the story: Always carry the love around you, do what you’re made to do & live in the moment. You never know when it’s your last. 

ezmeralda 

This was so good!! It kind of felt like it picked up right where the previous book left off so imo it’s one big book separated into two parts. And since I feel it was one big book, it deserves five stars just like If He Had Been With Me.

Lexi 

The ending felt incomplete and rushed, I loved reading the POV of other characters but wished for more at the conclusion. 

McKenna Benjamin

Wished I could’ve heard more from Finny’s perspective. He seemed a little one dimensional from what was given in his pov.

Cristina S

It was so sad. So nice to hear other people’s POV. I now love Sylvie ahha 

Katie Roberts

✨I go back upstairs and pick up my book. I'm not the voracious reader that Autumn is, but I almost always have a book I'm reading, slowly and steadily.

Autumn, though, I've seen her finish a novel, pause staring off into space for a minute like she's receiving instructions, and then open another book. It's as if her job is to read and she's behind on her quota.

✨That's what you were to him." I'm sniffling, but I need to finish.

"You were the biggest, most impossible dream for him."

✨"Someday; Brett says, "yo"ll think of Finn, and it won't hurt. Its not that the hurt ever goes away. You saw me today. But sometimes?

Sometimes when I remember Todd, I'm just happy that I got to be his brother. Someday you'll have that with Finn. I know it."

✨"There're always things that we could have done differently. What matters is what we do now."

✨Even if I don't have Finny to tell me I look beautiful, I can tell myself for him.

✨"I mean, I am inserting this fight they're having about the dance," I explain to her, "except it doesn't feel natural, 💞little beloved💞."

✨I know that there will be days when it feels like there won't be a future.

But for today, I can feel how Finny is still with me.

Mariaaa

✨I go back upstairs and pick up my book. I'm not the voracious reader that Autumn is, but I almost always have a book I'm reading, slowly and steadily.

Autumn, though, I've seen her finish a novel, pause staring off into space for a minute like she's receiving instructions, and then open another book. It's as if her job is to read and she's behind on her quota.

✨That's what you were to him." I'm sniffling, but I need to finish.

"You were the biggest, most impossible dream for him."

✨"Someday; Brett says, "yo"ll think of Finn, and it won't hurt. Its not that the hurt ever goes away. You saw me today. But sometimes?

Sometimes when I remember Todd, I'm just happy that I got to be his brother. Someday you'll have that with Finn. I know it."

✨"There're always things that we could have done differently. What matters is what we do now."

✨Even if I don't have Finny to tell me I look beautiful, I can tell myself for him.

✨"I mean, I am inserting this fight they're having about the dance," I explain to her, "except it doesn't feel natural, 💞little beloved💞."

✨I know that there will be days when it feels like there won't be a future.

But for today, I can feel how Finny is still with me.

If Only I Had Told Her

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