If We Were Villains
Artistic
Heartbreaking
Intense

If We Were Villains A Novel

M. L. Rio2017
'Enter the players. There were seven of us then, seven bright young things with wide precious futures ahead of us. Until that year, we saw no further than the books in front of our faces.' On the day Oliver Marks is released from jail, the man who put him there is waiting at the door. Detective Colborne wants to know the truth, and after ten years, Oliver is finally ready to tell it. Ten years before: Oliver is one of seven young Shakespearean actors at Dellecher Classical Conservatory, a place of keen ambition and fierce competition. In this secluded world of firelight and leather-bound books, Oliver and his friends play the same roles onstage and off: hero, villain, tyrant, temptress, ingénue, extra. But in their fourth and final year, the balance of power begins to shift, good-natured rivalries turned ugly, and on opening night real violence invades the students' world of make believe. In the morning, the fourth years find themselves facing their very own tragedy, and their greatest acting challenge yet: convincing the police, each other, and themselves that they are innocent. Part coming-of-age story, part confession, If We Were Villains explores the magical and dangerous boundary between art and life. In this tale of loyalty and betrayal, madness and ecstasy, the players must choose what roles to play before the curtain falls.
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miu@miureads
3.5 stars
Jun 12, 2024

James you are very much alive to me

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abi a@abiblu
4.5 stars
Jun 6, 2024

theater kids

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Pia @pia04
5 stars
May 8, 2024

My life will never be the same after this book I found one of my new favorites I don’t know if I want to cry or laugh like a crazy person and this end like pls pls just tell me don’t give me false hope

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Indi@indiw-ellink
4.5 stars
Jan 6, 2024

This book broke me and build me back up just to break me again. Like damn, the twists????? I read this in 2 days just to find out the ending isn’t comforting at all??? It wasn’t all right, it kicked me while I was down 😭

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Melinda @meli
5 stars
Apr 14, 2023

I am absolutely shattered but I also am relieved.

I loved every word of this book and it will take endlessly long to recover, I hate how it ended for Oliver, it's just so unfair but I do know that it's the only true way for this story to end.

If I could talk to the author I would say I do feel things twice. I love her work and hate it too.

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Anna@cqyannick
5 stars
Oct 3, 2022

If I could, I would give even more stars. I loved this book so much, i literally didn't want to finish reading it. I haven't cried this much over a book in quite a while, really made me go through emotional turmoil.
I WILL make this part of my personality for the foreseeable future and force all my friends to read it as well.

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Johanna@johanne
5 stars
Jul 30, 2022

dramatic and heartbreaking; i loved this book with my whole heart and couldn’t stop reading

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Ada @adaa799
5 stars
Apr 10, 2022

This was absolutely astonishing! It had dynamic dialogue, gloomy setting, and a very relatable main character. This is what I believe a re-imagination of Woolf’s waves would look like, but embroidered with twist after twist. Do yourself a favor and don’t read any content-based reviews before, as going in blindly makes it so much more impactful.

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bellamy-hill@emptylocket
5 stars
Jan 15, 2025
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Wesselhoff @i_wesselhoff
5 stars
Aug 30, 2024
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bea@oliverstale
5 stars
Aug 3, 2024
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Jude@joodith
3.5 stars
May 31, 2024
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k@telly
3.5 stars
Mar 3, 2024
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sock@chunkysock
3 stars
Jan 8, 2024
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Izzy Murphy@izxym68
3.5 stars
Jan 7, 2024
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lea 🪐@pageswithlea
5 stars
Jan 7, 2024
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Ellen Talseth@eatals
5 stars
Jan 3, 2024
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anne@gh0stlikesreading
4.5 stars
Dec 17, 2023
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Alexis Manore @alexismanore
5 stars
Dec 16, 2023
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Julia Krauß@julia_kr
3 stars
Sep 9, 2023
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Danforens@danforens
3.5 stars
Mar 18, 2023
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ldclr@ldclr
5 stars
Dec 31, 2022
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Kristle Saneewong@thewizardkristle
4 stars
Oct 13, 2022
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Miglė@miglegrig
4 stars
Sep 9, 2022

Highlights

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Melinda @meli

“I think he was enamored with you because you were so enamored with him.”

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

…searching for every record I can find of James Farrow's death in the bleak midwinter of 2004. I devour five, six, ten old articles, all of which say the same thing. He drowned himself on the last day of December, and though the local authorities dragged the freezing water for days and miles, his body was never found.

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

First, the reckoning. Then, the fall.

Page 353
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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

My name, dear saint, is hateful to myself " he said. “Because it is an enemy to thee"

Page 337
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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

“We cracked up," I say, but the phrase feels wrong. It was not so simple, or so clean, as a piece of fractured glass. “But we didn't r shatter until we were all back together again"

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

For someone who loved words as much as I did, it was amazing how often they failed me.

Page 253
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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

“Thy friendship makes us fresh."

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

This mimesis of conflict means more solidarity among those who can fight the same enemy together and who promise one another to do so. Nothing unites men like a common enemy.

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

"Wherein I am false I am honest; not true, to be true."

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Lieke Nieuwlaat @lieke_nieuwlaat

"People always forget about Filippa," I add. "And later they always wish they hadn't."

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Miglė@miglegrig

We’re only ever playing fifty percent of a character. The rest is us, and we’re afraid to show people who we really are. We’re afraid of looking foolish if we reveal the full force of our emotions.

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bianca@baancs

But that is how a tragedy like ours breaks your heart—by making you believe that the ending might still be happy, until the very last minute.

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bianca@baancs

People are passionate and flawed and fallible. They make mistakes. Their memories fade. Their eyes deceive them. Or sometimes they drink too much and fall in the lake.

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bianca@baancs

I wondered if she felt the fleeting stillness of my fitful, troubled soul.

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bianca@baancs

I thought of the night of the party, when he and I had stood together in the garden, peering up at the heavens through a jagged hole in the treetops. Our last isolated, innocent moment; the stillness that precedes the blows and billows of a storm.