Minnie Bruce Pratt

"In these lyrical vignettes, Pratt expands the boundaries of gender and its theory. She explores the inconsistencies, the infinities, the fluidity of sex and gender, and asks intriguing questions: How many ways are there to be girl, boy, man, woman? Is there a connection between feminine, masculine, lesbian, heterosexual, between desire and liberation? How many ways can the body's sex vary---by chromosomes, hormones, genitals? How many ways can our gender expressions multiply---between home and work, at the computer and when we kiss someone, in our dreams and when we walk down the street? What is our dream of who we want to be? Pratt's stories are part of new theory appearing at the intersections---of the feminism of U.S. women's liberation, the writings of women of color in the U.S. and internationally, the queer ideas of lesbian and gay liberation, and the emerging thought of transgender liberation. S/HE helps move these ideas into action by giving us theory that has flesh and breath, that exists in all of our eccentric, complicated, daily lives."--BOOK JACKET.

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Lindsay

That night I looked back at my first friend, a girl scalded by her mother’s shame. The threats of walk- like- a- lady, of don’t- be- so- loud- and- angry. (And hate yourself enough to almost go crazy.) I looked back at myself, the child flirting in photographs with angled head, sidelong glance. The child given an impossible choice by her teachers: Be smart or be a girl, be a girl or be strong. (And hate yourself enough to almost leave your body.) The two of us had sat at playtime in the dirt, barefoot, battling furiously hand- to- hand in the desire to defeat the other. How had we survived to meet again? Survived to grow up to be women for whom the word woman did not adequately describe the twists and turns our bodies, our lives, took through sex and gender?

We could have answered that woman was not the opposite of man, and that liberation meant crossing all arbitrary gender boundaries, to place ourselves anywhere we chose on the continuum of maleness to femaleness, in any aspect of our lives.

Some of these reformists accepted limits on what constituted womanhood because of uncritical allegiances to their own class and race positions. For others, this was a strategic decision; they believed a political definition of woman that deemphasized difference would secure more territory for women in a hostile world. They hoped to establish a bulwark, and then a place that could be built on for greater liberation. In fact, the exclusion of women who blurred the edges of what was considered legitimate as woman— because of race or class or sexuality or gender presentation— made women’s space smaller and more dangerous, made this aspect of the women’s movement weaker and more limited in foundation.

As women and as lesbians we wanted to step outside traps set for us as people sexed as women, to evade negative values gendered to us. We didn’t want to be women as defined by the larger culture, so we had to get rid of femininity. We didn’t want to be oppressed by men, so we had to get rid of masculinity. And we wanted to end enforced desires, so we had to get rid of heterosexuality.

And both inside and outside lesbian space, there is another assumption held by some. No “real” lesbian would be attracted to as much masculinity as I prefer in my lesbian lover.

I wish I were running away in a car with another woman, driving farther south into the heat, sweating inside the translucent blue voile dress I wore the summer before I married, the one that no longer fits me after two children. I might argue with her all the way, but I’m arguing with myself: How to be a woman? I don’t want to be. They do not see my mind, they only see my body. I don’t want to leave my body. I want to feel full and humid, thunderhead about to crack with lightning. I want to walk in danger by myself and survive, the way she holds her head up, clenches her teeth under blood- red lips, and dares anyone to stop her. I don’t want anyone to think I am like her. When we meet in the hallway at work, I can barely look at her, and she also looks askance.

Do I desire her because she spoke the secret out loud, because she broke through the barrier between us? Do I desire her because she made herself vulnerable, showed me her wounds, a beckon to me to hold and heal her? Do I care for her only as a guide to follow down a path to myself? I wander between word, dream, fantasy, desire, action, man, woman, woman, woman.

When I am with her, I have no idea what sex I am or what gender, whose body I have, or the meanings of my gestures. One afternoon I spread her legs with my hands and her labia with my fingers and dart my tongue deep into her. Satiated, I coil around her and fall asleep. In my dream I feel something swell between my legs, heavy and hot. Waking with a start in the dim twilight, in the rank sheets, first I am lying on my husband, his penis engorged against my stomach. Then it is her penis that burrows and bumps against me. Then I shift and know: perhaps it is my own, writhing and dreadful between my legs.

Standing in a dusty field, she’d gotten her first hit in twenty- five years— a single over third base. The energy flew up from the earth through her cunt, belly, shoulders, into the bat. The power of the hit, her arms lifting and winging her toward all the other women running in response to her.

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