Monica  Murphy

Things I Wanted to Say, But Never Did

Dasha

“Yet you’re all I can think about.” 

Levi-Mae 

“Sometimes I would think you weren’t real. You could be that perfect.”

Whit Lancaster burst into my life like a storm. Dark and thunderous, furious and fierce. Cold, heartless and devastatingly beautiful, like the statues in our prep school gardens. The school with his family name on the sign. He can do no wrong here. This is his domain.

He’s a menace on campus. Adored and feared. Hated and respected. His taunting words carve into my skin, shredding me to ribbons. Yet his intense gaze scorches my blood, fills me with a longing I don’t understand.

When he comes to my rescue one night, he ends up broken. Bleeding. My instincts scream to leave and let him suffer, but I can’t. I sneak him into my room. Clean him up. Fall for his lies. Let him possess every single part of me until I’m the one left a gasping, broken mess.

Then he leaves me alone in the dead of night, taking my journal with him.

Now he knows all my secrets. My hate. My truth. And he promises to use my words against me. I’ll be ruined if my darkest secret gets out.

That’s when I strike a bargain with the devil.

I’ll let Whit Lancaster ruin me behind closed doors instead.


Lancaster Prep

Things I Wanted To Say (but never did)

Kaden Matthew

I do my best to not look in Whit's direction, and it’s driving me crazy. I hope my not looking at him drives him crazy.

"Now this drink? It's special. The boys I know? Not a one of them matters to me. Well, maybe one, but he fucks everyone else and puts me on a pedestal like I'm fragile and untouchable.

What Whit and I share isn't normal. I don't know how to define it. I also didn't know you could feel so much, being with someone you hate. Become aroused by someone who says such horrible things. It's as if he has complete control over my body, how it responds, and I'm not mad about it.

I'm no angel. No one expects me to be. I'm a selfish asshole who takes what he wants, whenever he wants it.

I'm a selfish bastard. I love nothing more but to take and take. It's the Lancaster way.

 An unfamiliar feeling rises within me, threatens to overwhelm, and I realize quickly what it is.

 I may look submissive, as if I'm being forced to do this, but I'm the one who's giving him pleasure.

"Summer." My eyes fly wide. He never calls me by my name. It's always Savage. Or whore.

"What's happening in that mind of yours right now? What are you thinking? The same thing l am?”

"If doesn't matter what I do, you don't back down. Any other person would've broke by now. It's like I can't break you, and that frustrates me too”

"You're just a girl. A weak, whorish little girl who took him down with one knee as if he was powerless. That's why he was so mad. I don't blame him. You're nothing, yet you strut around campus like you own the place, and it's not yours to own, Savage. This is my campus. You should cower in fear every time I so much as look at you."

"You're such an asshole. I'm risking everything, sneaking you into my room and trying to help you, and this is how you repay me?"

"I could get a hundred other bitches to do the exact same thing you're doing, right now. All it would take is this. He snaps his fingers.

But we both know I can’t ignore him, and he can’t ignore me.

He grins. There's blood staining his teeth, reminding me of a beau- tiful devil. A fallen angel. As if he can read my mind, he spreads his arms out

She believes she’s above it all, when no one is. They all bow to me.

Once I realized Summer was going to pretend I didn't exist. I turned everyone against her. Yet no one broke her. She strode across campus, down the halls, into the dining hall, the library, the gardens, as if she owned this place. Her head held high, her nose in the air like- a queen. Above it all.

hate how much I just enjoyed our interaction. His fingers on my skin, the gentle threat beneath them. I wanted the pain. I was leaning into his palm, silently begging for it. I hate myself for wanting it. For wanting him.

We're standing so close. Like we're a couple prepared to go out onto the dance floor and sway to a romantic song together. 

alya adlina

listen, this book basically 85% smut and 15% plot but I AINT COMPLAINING. i’m very much enjoyed the spice this book gave even though i wish there’s more angsty of the two mc. 

i never knew in my whole life that i will be obsessed with bully romance. typical cringe but i really enjoyed this book so much. Whit and Summer’s relationship in this book really has the best development. enemies to lovers to enemies to lovers kinda trope yup i really ate it. let’s talk about whit first, that man literally called summer “whore” in every fucking page and it turns out to be hot for me. i know it’s weird but wtv. but the way he punched someone because of summer even though he hates her >>>>> we just love an obsessed men. summer. she so fucking strong and i really adore her. like she so cool in her own way. and i can see why whit was so obsessed with her. 

so okay this might not be light read bcs there’s a lot of family drama and stuffs that could be a disturbing and shocking. idk how to convince you guys to read this book but if you love some boy obsessed trope, enemies to lovers, bully romance and all just read it!!!

Renata

okay but this was good?????
i legit read it in less than 24 hours
this is literally pwp. 

- “I’ve been obsessed with her since I was fourteen. Yet my thoughts of her haven’t waned over the years whatsoever. She’s always been there, lingering in the back of my mind, haunting me at the strangest times, or when I least expect it.”

- “No one. No one has held me like Whit just did in so long. It felt good. Being in Whit’s arms, wrapped all around him, felt… Like I belonged. With him.”

- “Last night had been a realization. This girl is under my skin. We’re connected. We share the same birthday for fuck’s sake. I don’t want to push her away because of some sort of obligation I’m being forced into.”

- “Summer drove me out of my mind with lust, but she also…softened me. Made me smile. Made me happy, damn it. An emotion I didn’t believe I was capable of feeling. Only she did that for me. And I haven’t felt that way since she walked out of my life. Not once.”

- “I’m in love with you, Summer,” he whispers, his mouth right at my ear, brushing the sensitive skin. “I have been since I first laid eyes on you all those years ago.”

- “I was an idiot. I still am. But I will do my damnedest to prove to you that I love you. Every single day for the rest of your life, as long as you let me.”

- “We were made to be together. The stars aligned that night oh so long ago, allowing us to find each other.”

honya

2.5 this was a straight up porn book. 

summary:
summer and whit met when they were 14 (they both have the same bday) and they literally just made out, HE HATES HER CAUSE HER MOM WAS HIS DADS MISTRESS. their family fell apart cause of summers narcissistic mom. a few years later summer transfers to the lancaster prep school and they meet again. he’s surprised and obviously hates her, bullies her, etc. she finds a new friend (sylvie) and she’s whit’s sister who’s extremely sick and always talks about dying. she gets SA‘d like 2 times at that school (halloween and while she’s trying to got jogging at night [elliot & bryan]) one day after they hook up he walks around her room while she’s asleep to find something that could potentially hurt her. he finds her journal! yay! (the journal talks a lot about how she got raped and SA’d by her stepbrother yates and how she was the reason yates and his nicer father jonas died in a fire —> it was actually cause of her mother but she didn’t tell her till the end and let her suffer🥰 anyways, she’s terrified that he got her journal and could potentially get her to jail. she has to do anything he wants and yea. straight porn goes on for agessss. on thanksgiving sylvie invites summer to come with her to visit her fam for a week. she agrees cause she basically has no fam herself and her mother doesn’t give batshit about her. the whole week they do the deed😊 whole week. and whit’s sort of pedo father gives her the looks… one day when they go to a party and she sees whit near a girl and expects the worst. she starts crying and meets montgomery, the nice gay dude. they’re besties all of the sudden. with and summer make up and make up yada yada. the next day sylvie is pissed at summer, understandably so, but she has a venomous tongue so it gets dirty real fast. she insults her like there’s no tomorrow and basically calles her a gold digger cause the lancasters are like the wealthiest family ever. sylvies fucked up mother sylvia obviously also hates her cause she’s the daughter of the person who ruined their family and she also insults her and threatens to send her to jail if she doesn’t leave their mansion immediately (she read her journal and knows everything). she leaves and sylvia even writes a „letter“ from „summer“ so whit thinks she left cause she got the money she wanted. she goes to her mothers place and she confesses that she was actually the one. summer then takes a gap year (her mom allows her cause she feels guilty) to paris all alone but she meets monty there and monty and whit planned everything so whit and summer meet there again after 1 year and 4 months. they hook up. they go back to the US. after 5 years they have kids and marry🥰 (he wanted to marry her at 19 tho) the father doesn’t fancy her anymore either. weird guy.

nicknames:
stupid little plaything/whore & villian/monster

mena 

1/5
I hate this guy. I just had brain damage by reading this. what part of this book is romance? all summer and whit talk about is how sick they are and fuck all the time. it got disgusting and I got so bored. I thought there at least would be an interesting plot. secrets in the journal. no, the answer is no. the plot was how having sex and dirty talk makes you and someone soulmates. I won't print this to my journal, doesn't deserve to be there. worst. book. ever.

Elena

Ashley

WHOAH..

It was all exquisite.. pretty sure it was 85% smut, 15% plot. Though I did not mind 👀

Whittaker Lancaster, Summer Savage, and a whole lot of raw obsession. The need, the want, everything..

The smut was sure dark, constants and ufff very filthy. It was crazy when I was reminded that they were barely legal; 17-18 years old, they were.

However, as much as I liked the sexy parts, I did find them too much in occasions. Like, he was half groveling and half trying to fuck her again. Keep it in your pants bro. That is what actually made it seem a very physical relationship, not bad, however the emotional connection was most likely lost in between. 

5 stars still because I did mindlessly enjoy and was intrigued from the very first page to the very last. 

Also, I feel like I highlighted so much phrases or words throughout the book and that’s extra points x

Ummmm Wow…… God I hated Whit at first but this man grewwww on me! Ughhhh Chapter 32!!! <3333 (Finally seeing him in the feels, such a sweet moment between the two characters 🥺) I feel like the plot could’ve been bigger, the self growth was definitely needed and I’m glad they did that apart. Overall it was a great book and I can’t wait to read A Million Kisses in Your Lifetime :) <333 

Macy

Taniareads 

90% smut e 10% de plot é este livro. Se me entreteve? S-sim. Se vale a pena, meh nem por isso. 

Disclaimer: Segundo o Goodreads este livro é um YA, dark, erotic e high school? Aceito que seja NA, mas impensável um YA e nem deveria ser passado no secundário devido a todas as cenas explícitas que basicamente existem em todos os capítulos, até porque apenas capítulos finais é que eles fazem 18 anos. Tudo bem, é ficção e eu entendo! Mas eu só pensava “vocês estão adolescentes…” e basicamente é um livro super dark.

alli novick

una kk

las autoras deberían de dejar de romantizar a las personas que han sufrido agresión sexual y peor aún, sexualizarlas. no deberían de tomar tan a la ligera este tema tan sensible y escribir un puto libro bullyromance 

del protagonista masculino nada que decir una mierda total, debía no sé? aguantar la respuesta por siempre

This book made me want to throw across the room and off a balcony I did not like this book at all it was basically a smut book with no plot. And Whit how much a prick that he is he took Summers  journal with personal entries in there so he could blackmail her into doing dirty stuff with him and their first interaction how she can be his whore because her mother is having an affair with his father nope I don’t like but there were places in the book where I give props to him with protecting summer from someone almost beating her up and raping her I feel so bad for Summer in this book because of guilt she has to carry around with her and the way everyone treats her because Whit tells them to I wish Monica Murphy at least made him grovel in this book instead of realizing that she is the one for him as he got older   ( this book has tropes of enemies to lovers, bully romance, private school romance, and I hate everyone but you this book does contain topics such and suicide, rape, and blackmail)

char🫠

amaniabdul

this book was js bad. the characters in this were hella annoying i js want to slap tf out of them so they can get sum sense. this book said it was gon be "dark" theres really nothing dark abt it. probably bc i be reading too much dark romance. summer was a legit an idiot, like idk how she got into ap/honors classes and shes stupid. and i really liked slyvie or whatever her name is at the beginning but after the thanksgiving event she got annoying like i understand where shes coming from but like how come u say "i dont like my mother" type bs then act like her?🤨 weird anyways. the smut in here was good thats only y im giving it 2 stars😭

Samantha 

3.5 Stars. 
Bully romance. 
Lots of s*x. 
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I was between 3.5 and 4 stars. For me, the main characters were often very frustrating and Summer gives in way too easily. But I still really enjoyed the read.

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