Joelina Falk

Lily Reyes is trying to win the fight against Depression. Well, more or less trying as childhood trauma lets her believe that the world is too cruel to be living in. In Lily's world, everything makes as much sense as breathing underwater. Yet, as she is preparing her goodbyes, Lily makes one little mistake. She accidentally leaves her notebook for him to find. Colin Carter is the captain of St. Trewery's hockey team. A man that offers more than just good looks. He's facing struggles of his own, ones he feels too guilty to talk about. And yet... Lily's life now lies in his hands. And in only nine days he sure does flip her whole world upside down. Feelings get involved, hearts a being broken, mistakes are getting fixed and old passions are being found back to. But will that be enough? Will nine days change everything? Will nine fun days convince Lily that there is more to life than pain and sorrow?

Nine Days

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This whole thing here, breathing, it’s getting too much for me. My body doesn’t want to be here anymore, neither does my soul. I’m tired.

This is a battle I lost. A battle against myself. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it.

Technically it makes sense because a body contains energy. And since energy doesn’t go lost, it’ll have to go somewhere after death, right?

The satisfaction that comes through when you realize you carried so much weight like it was a feather. You feel lighter when it’s gone and only then do you realize how heavy it was on you.

I’m scared that if I stay, I will only continue to live in misery.

Every single day I am begging the crying creature staring back at me in the mirror to just hold on for a little while longer.

“You did see the way he looks at you, right?”

“The way I’ve wanted him to look at me for a while,” she says, but I don’t quite understand. “Like he’s in love with you.”

And that makes me wonder; why would anyone want to live when all there is in the end is death?

How much hatred does a mother need to have inside of her to scream this at her child? How much pain does she have to be in, in order to make her daughter feel this miserable?

I know this girl is special. She has a huge heart, loves with so much brightness. It’s so sad to see that she wouldn’t even see it herself.

So I’ll be loving her. I’ll love her until her last breath, and even after that I’ll continue to love her with every breath I take. Even if I have to breathe for the both of us.

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