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presque vu (almost seen): the intense feeling of being on the very brink of a powerful epiphany, insight, or revelation, without actually achieving the revelation

 

(Sirius Black is born. Sirius Black dies. Everything in between is the unknown.)

Presque vu 

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But Regulus is six years old and cares more about the lines on his constellation than imagining reasons he would ever not love the person he knows he always will, so he only squints at the sheet as he shades in the heart, and he says, "Uh huh. I'll love you no matter what."

Sirius doesn't say I'm your big sister, too.

"Yeah. Normal is boring, " James tells him matter-of-factly. "I won't ever be boring, and you shouldn't be either."

because no one gets Sirius like he does. They want to work up the courage to let Remus catch sight of them in it, just to see if his gaze will linger like it does when they're not wearing it. Sirius likes when Remus' gaze lingers.

I already love this fic but I also already know it will be really heavy

The first person Sirius ever kisses is James.

They're both fifteen when James asks, "Is it okay that I think a lot of people are fit?"

I mean who doesn’t love them some prongsfoot as long as it is platonic 

"And yet, I'm a brilliant kisser," Sirius tells him, smiling.

Sirius does, in fact, do it better. James is a fast-learner, though, and someday, someone's really going to appreciate that. Sirius is the only person in the world that has always and will always appreciate everything about him, though.

Anyone can love James, but Sirius will always love him best.

Regulus could be trained, while Sirius never could.

"Why can't you just go with it?" Regulus whispers, later that night. "Why do you always have to push back?"

"Because I won't agree with them. I can't," Sirius croaks, staring at him in disbelief. "Do you?"

Even when they're alone, Regulus won't speak.

"Do you think like them, Reggie?" Sirius asks-demands of him, really, wanting to shake him. Don't. Please don't.

You know what they think of me. If you can't find compassion for anyone else, surely you can for me. "Do you, Regulus?!"

"It's easier not to think at all," Regulus murmurs, gaze downcast, fixed on the floor.

I think it goes without saying that I cried …in the first chapter….fuck my life

They don't know that Regulus steals their sheets with their constellations and two-heart stars to sleep beneath them until the day he dies.

Sirius doesn't know, Regulus doesn't think, and so this is how it goes. Better to speak or die? That's the question, isn't it?

Sirius is the one who always spoke first. Maybe that's why, between them and Regulus, they die last.

Yeah here we go again Zar let’s go and hurt me again why don’t you?!

But Sirius and James aren't just bullies, really. You have to look deeper than that.

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