Vespertine

Okay so, I’m gonna start with what I didn’t like about this book cause that’s the stuff I always remember the most. For the half of the book, Jazz and his priestly-ness almost made me dnf it. I understand that he’s a priest, and so he’s a big fan of god, but he had the bring him up in almost every spoken sentence and it was driving me mad. For example someone would tell him they’re struggling in life, Jazz’s response would be “god wouldn’t want you to give up”. Or something bad would happen to someone and he would say “these things happen for a reason, god has his plans”. And he would go on and on about god’s will and god’s path for himself and others and I just couldn’t take it seriously. A lot of these things we said to someone who didn’t believe in god, and if it were me I literally would be rolling my eyes at every sentence. I was raised in a catholic country, but I have no respect for the rules of the church. I’m not sure if I’d consider myself an atheist or not, I’m not sure what I believe in, but having someone constantly tell me that god would and wouldn’t want me to do certain things would definitely piss me off 😂 Eventually Jazz stopped bringing up his in every sentence, and it got better towards the end, it just took a while, but it definitely made it really hard to have any connection to him. I really like Nicky’s character, he was struggling so much at the start of the book and my heart bled for him. I think the author did a really good job handling his addiction storyline and I loved some of this things they wrote in like how being on maintenance medication for a drug addict is like being on any form of life saving medication for life long illnesses and isn’t something that should be thought of as only temporary. The last 40% of the book was where all the magic happened. This was definitely a slow burn, but it suited the plot so I wasn’t dying for things to happen too quick. The sex scenes in this book were so tender I just wanted to cry the whole time 😂 there was so much love between these two men and I’m such a sucker for friends to lovers theme. Overall it was enjoyable enough, but not a mind blowing read.